What do you do when the person you can't envision your life without is the source of that?
Maybe it's just a rough patch, or maybe this is how things are going to be now.
I just want to wake up in the morning and be happy. I don't want to cry anymore.
I'm not even sure that he's done anything wrong, and this isn't just self inflicted pain.
I overthink everything. I'm overly sensitive, but that's just who I am.
Most days, I hate that's who I am and that I'm constantly needing someone to talk me down from a ledge
But if someone loves you, shouldn't they be willing to do that?
I'm terrified of loving the wrong person. Always have been, always will. I've experienced more heartbreak in my 22 years than most people probably ever experience in a lifetime.
It never crossed my mind that maybe Mike is the wrong person until recently.
I don't want him to be the wrong person. I don't want that at all, and maybe he's not but my heart is screaming out in pain and I just don't know what to do with it anymore.
I'm sitting here trying to pinpoint the exact reason I'm hurting, and there's only one thing I can place my finger on.
I feel unappreciated.
Maybe it's human nature, but people never notice the things you do for them, until you stop doing it.
I never hear a thank you for anything I do, but then when I don't want to go to work, or I don't feel like cleaning the kitchen, I'm treated like I'm lazy.
It not only makes me feel unappreciated, but completely worthless.
I don't think I'm any better some days, and maybe that's our whole problem. We've forgotten how to appreciate each other.
I think that's an issue in today's world. We don't appreciate the people we love or even the people who make us our coffee every day.
We've come to appreciate material things, not people or places.
I think we're all guilty of it to some degree or another. I just wish it wasn't the source of agony and strain in my relationship.
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